Chameleon Culture

Analysis Paralysis, The Disillusionment Maze

The abstract touch-me-not layer. Bitter Filter, Fibrosa, Vasculosa, Nervosa, Perspective.
Ante Script : If my theories hurt your pseudo-stable thought-set, I'll know they aren't entirely untrue. Alter my view while I alter yours. #ConversationalRecursion

 Multiple options, offline and online communication forums, endless social opportunities, social media,  CommTech in general are biphasic w.r.t. usage. Excuse my love for fancy self-made terms (chose to not see the alternatives, hah), but I call all of the above 'inconveniento-conveniences' (ICs). The extent of a person's vulnerability to/usage of ICs hints at his/her degree of fickleness. Most of us are getting altered psychologically by ICs and the trends they've given birth to, in a way that is hampering our relationships, simplifying the process of leaving one for another with little or no guilt, introducing dangerous thoughts, creating unnecessary debate in easy situations, making us raise redundant life-related questions, giving birth to an unneeded identity crisis(specific to the person), over-governing our process of fixing priorities. Sad part?  We don't know what we really want, because the wants keep changing, howsoever desperate they may be in the moment. 

 What's responsible? Primarily, ICs.

Most expressed wants/desires in equations, these days especially, are either impractically ambitious, entirely mood-based, lacking long-term pragmatism, selfishly considerate (oxymorons are good food for thought) or emotionally unviable.  Popular relationship philosophy : No room for repeated mistakes in the equation? The fun's gone? Replace the person in it with someone who accepts and tolerates those repeated mistakes every time rather than improvement or elimination of weaknesses that led to those repeated mistakes. Why? Because the ego hurts lesser in replacement than in improvement. Adventure has become a relationship priority while stability comes way later. Surprising. 

Need an ego-boost? Generate it internally and independently not externally. It'll probably last longer. 

How do I build an ego tunnel that's sustainable in a century owned by "Le Fickle-Minded"? Fool myself, maybe convince my brain of false reality, given that my own perception is entirely true? Yes. (The default state is all pessimistic, saves trouble.) Just so all the externally generated negativity doesn't taint my compressed innocence. 

How do I feed my desire to be unselfishly nice in a world that lets the manipulative flourish faster  than the genuine can? Prompt people to fake the niceness through my gestures for a bit, so I can treat them the way I would've, had I known they were genuinely nice, for as long as my emotions and self-protecting tendencies let me. 

Why take the complicated route? To prevent robotic behavior, trust and intimacy issues that result from disillusionment. To kill expectations. Creating a temporary false reality is analogous to adding steps at, say, positions 3,5 and 7 in a 1-10 emotional ladder. The pain's way lesser when you fall from 1 to 3, 1 to 5 or even 1 to 7. Gradient 9 situations can be emotionally taxing. 

Why do equation-templates exist? "We're family, ergo, we must do this". "We're dating, so we must say 'I love you' even when we don't feel like it." Isn't customizing an equation to suit the emotional needs of  the involved parties a better idea? 

                                                                                     Zaijian.